Sometimes you just need to get your drunk on, and start typing. I needed to do this. Blogging is like sex after a long dry spell. Sometimes you just need to have a cocktail or five to supply the lubrication, and get on with it.
I know I know. I haven’t blogged in a million years and you all are on pins and needles waiting to see what words of wisdom I have to impart. Hold back your disappointment. I have none. But here is what I do have, after months of working my ass off for work, and sticking my nose in places it probably had no place being…
1. I have an incredible family, especially my daugher, who accepts me unconditionally. Yes, they understand I’m not quite sane, and I am probably completely unmedicated (actually I am medicated – how scary is THAT???) But they love me. I know that when I look in their eyes, and mostly they are just glad I’m happy. You really can’t ask for much more than that. Unconditional acceptance is one of the greatest gifts in life. It’s my brass ring, my light at the end of the tunnel, my pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. I’m not easy, I’m not subtle, and I completely lack any sense of diplomacy…yet my family understands and accepts, and doesn’t judge.
2. I have a husband who not only lets me be myself – which isn’t always a good thing - but he knows when to “reel me in and keep me grounded.” Not an easy task for anyone. I worry that I am more than he bargained for, and I’ll just make him exhausted. But every day he wakes up with a smile on his face, looks in my eyes and declares he loves me madly. He’d have to be mad to put up with my antics. Thank you Bill. I love you more madly.
3. I have friends who, like my family, accept me and all the craziness that comes with…patient? Yep, they are incredibly patient, and probably just a little nuts themselves. But I know they accept me for who I am, not what I can do for them. They revel in our mutual moments utter abandonment, and they understand that while I am not perfect, I am well-intentioned. Thank you for that.
4. I have a career that provides me with all I ever dreamed of..ever…in my entire life. I get to boss everyone around, be creative in ways I never thought possible, thrive under pressure, and hug lots of really cool people. And I get to do most of this in really cool locations all around the world. Thank you God…for great timing and allowing me to be and accomplish all sorts of amazing things.
Life is odd. Life is grand. Life provides us with relationships and opportunities we never imagined. But really, we earn these gifts. I’ve busted my ass, made a ton of mistakes and tried my best to learn from each and every mistake. I am where I am because of every choice I have ever made – good, bad or otherwise. Honestly, I cannot imagine being anywhere else. I have no regrets, no disappointments and no desire to do anything differently. So now, I shall just go forth, do my best, and hope that I don’t do anything stupid. Perfect? No. Happy? In ways you cannot even imagine.