Sometimes you just need to get your drunk on, and start
typing. I needed to do this. Blogging is like sex after a long dry spell. Sometimes you just need to have a cocktail or five to supply the lubrication, and get on with it.
I know I know. I haven’t blogged in a million years and you
all are on pins and needles waiting to see what words of wisdom I have to
impart. Hold back your disappointment. I
have none. But here is what I do have,
after months of working my ass off for work, and sticking my nose in places it
probably had no place being…
1. I have an
incredible family, especially my daugher, who accepts me unconditionally. Yes, they understand I’m not quite sane, and I am probably completely unmedicated (actually I am medicated – how scary is
THAT???) But they love me. I know that
when I look in their eyes, and mostly they are just glad I’m happy. You really can’t ask for much more than
that. Unconditional acceptance is one of
the greatest gifts in life. It’s my
brass ring, my light at the end of the tunnel, my pot of gold at the end of the
rainbow. I’m not easy, I’m not subtle,
and I completely lack any sense of diplomacy…yet my family understands and
accepts, and doesn’t judge.
2.
I have a husband who not only lets me be myself –
which isn’t always a good thing - but he knows when to “reel me in and keep me
grounded.” Not an easy task for
anyone. I worry that I am more than he
bargained for, and I’ll just make him exhausted. But every day he wakes up with a smile on his
face, looks in my eyes and declares he loves me madly. He’d have to be mad to put up with my
antics. Thank you Bill. I love you more
madly.
3.
I have friends who, like my family, accept me
and all the craziness that comes with…patient? Yep, they are incredibly
patient, and probably just a little nuts themselves. But I know they accept me for who I am, not
what I can do for them. They revel in our mutual moments utter abandonment, and they
understand that while I am not perfect, I am well-intentioned. Thank you for that.
4.
I have a career that provides me with all I ever
dreamed of..ever…in my entire life. I
get to boss everyone around, be creative in ways I never thought possible,
thrive under pressure, and hug lots of really
cool people. And I get to do most of this in really cool locations all around
the world. Thank you God…for great
timing and allowing me to be and accomplish all sorts of amazing things.
Life is odd. Life is grand. Life provides us with relationships and
opportunities we never imagined. But
really, we earn these gifts. I’ve busted
my ass, made a ton of mistakes and tried my best to learn from each and every
mistake. I am where I am because of
every choice I have ever made – good, bad or otherwise. Honestly, I cannot imagine being anywhere
else. I have no regrets, no disappointments
and no desire to do anything differently.
So now, I shall just go forth, do my best, and hope that I don’t do
anything stupid. Perfect? No. Happy? In ways you cannot even imagine.
